Feminine Intuition

2008-07-18T11:19:00.004+08:00

Haha... Been gone for like what? 2 Months. Haha. Well i was on a hiatus. Finally back and feeling the same. Well it's been so long there's too much to talk about so i'll just slowly advocate the most recent occurances. (: haha.

Well 1st off, My bestie is in the hospital. And she is in London.. Haha..

2nd, Hrm, apprently my arm is healing but not well haha so my bowling career might just end soon. Gosh... Haha

3rd, I have to choose about taking the SAJC DSA or not and yeah will elaborate more later.

4th, Ah my studies are going down the drain and yeah i'm not feeling guilty at all.. Haha...

5th, I did make 1 new friend and lost like 3.. haha ah well

So yeah the 5 most important things

Number 1. Well yeah my bestie's in the hospital and she's really sick but the totally sad part of it all is the fact that she was suppose to fly back like on Monday. Sigh ! Heal up faster !!

Number 2, Enough said. haha happpyyy......

Number3, I chose to take the DSA but now i feel kinda weird about it all. Well Candice is like going TJ and Kenneth Mah is like going AC. So there goes 2 people who are dear to me but ah well. At least i've got Elaina who already signed the DSA and is going there. And some people from my class who don't mind following me there but i dont know either haha. Most people don't really want to go there so it's their wish i guess. Ah well.. haha.... happppppyy.....

Number 4, Yup unable to study because of the first 3 things haha.

Number 5, Yay made 1 friend but lost 3. Although they lost themselves from me. Ah well i'll still look at them as my friends but i don't think they will anymore.. haha... happppyyy....

So all in all everything is kinda pilling up and well yeah now it's time for me to run away haha. I don't think i can take much more because i have a low capacity for anything haha. Well the sad part would be that if i accept the SAJC DSA i might not even make it through this year XD. I'll probably .... along the way somewhere haha.... happpppyyy....

P.S. How childish of me right? haha. and
Note to self, Never keep your hopes up (: .. Gosh i was crying again haha what a whimp I am. I shall rmbr. 11:15 Am Friday the 18th i cried and i dont know why.

I was living in Denial this is all my fault. BEing unable to face the unbearable truth.

2008-05-19T17:50:00.002+08:00

Ok, So i have not blogged in ages and i hope this post is enough for me to vent out all my stress and to explain to people why i have not been blogging off late. (:

Anyway, first of, my results were seriously terrible.. I feel really extremely sad just looking at them... Like 15 points wth. And i got C's for both maths. I really can't imagine what my tuition teacher is going to say. He will probably be like.. "Your better than this". All this while i keep getting annoyed over silly things. As such.. I have not really blogged neither have i had the time to keep up with my friends. It's all really quite sad. No matter, i will still try my best to pursue my goal of going to SAJC (:.

Now the problem with SAJC..
1) My mum does not want me to go there
2) My mum thinks the lectures are terrible
3) My brother did not do well for A levels when he went there.
4) I am the only male bowler, that can actually bowl, going there.
5) Kenneth Mah does not want to go there.
6) Even non-bowlers do not go there.
7) Apparently since ACS(I) integrated the IB, ACS boys don't go to SA.
8) Social segregation due to the overwhelming amout of SA boys there.
9) Lockers are not outside your class
10) The campus is super big.

So let's calculate that there are 10 points against going to SAJC. So I don't really know what I am going to do... Ah well. Life's like that i guess. In this moment in time everyone has their own problems.

Now points against RJ or AC
1) AC i don't know if i can DSA there. Neither do i know if i can DSA to RJ since there are alot of SSS boys going there.
2) Problems with some AC people that i dont want to see in ACJC.
3) It is a cult.
4) RJ is full of straight A students which is pressurizing.
5) RJ bowling team i don't really know the captain so well.
6) AC is far from my house like ACSI
7) RJ is also very far from my house
8) SA coach will hate me
9) Alot of people will hate me
10) Some people might throw stones at me.

So there are 10 points against RJ and AC COMBINED. So it seems like either RJ or AC is a better choice. I don't really know anymore. Life is really pissing me off.

Well there's always poly (: . To that i i say " Cheers ". Also, to Kenneth Mah, alot of people will miss you if you dont go SA including me. But if you go AC i wont hate you. Stresssssss

Ok now a bizzare convo:

Adnaan: Why do you keep taking stuff from my plate? (Sianed look)

Alyana: I don't know. (smiles)

Adnaan: Stop it. Or else i will keeeelll you. (Sneers)

Dad: Stop it both of you or i drop you on the highway on the way home.

Alyana & Adnaan: Ok fine. (Angry)

Dad reaches his hand out and takes Alyana's curly fry. The last one, in a pile of straight fries.

Alyana: (sobs) Eh!! You took my curly fry ! I hate you ! I will never forgive you.

Dad: -_-

Adnaan: Ehh! You took my curly fry now. ( Angry )

At the carpark,

Dad: Look, you can go bye your curly fries on the way home.

Alyana: Fine. But my curly fry. (Seriously cries)

OMG HAHA ! lol that was an odd day.. ah well till my next post cheers. SAJC FTW. but IMHO, i dont think i can go ): Too dumb... and alot of other factors..

2008-05-11T20:49:00.003+08:00

Heyyyy World ! So i have not posted in a long time and i do apologise to my avid readers.. (If i do have any) And i will try my best to update more often.

So... Mid Years just ended so now i am more free (: . Bad news is that i still have to do art on a daily basis because i really need an A1 now that i have finally realised it. So i shall try my best. yay haha (:

So update on my life... Empty and pointless as it may be.

Well went to A guitar concert after mid years were finally over. Oh gosh KILLER a maths paper. Serious failure going on. Well it was fun and i enjoyed myself quite a bit. Music is so relaxing (: . Its a shame i can't play any instruments. Sob. Anyway went with Marissa, Lester, Max and Adam so it was kinda cool because my friends went too (:. Oh it was at SAJC !! My future school XD. Hopefully anyway. I don't know why everyone expects me to go ACJC. I don't really want to go there. Haiz. Time's change. And apparently AC people don't go to SA. Please my brother went there and totally brought the name up. I don't care about what people say anymore.

Anyway then on Sat.. went to train with uncle adam.. Although he was mostly training SA. Haha their training is so cool. I needed to experience it i guess haha (: . Well i got tryouts on 24th May 2 days before my MT exam OMG ! O level MT. Sucks. Wish me luck anyone who reads (: .

So now the sad part about life.

LIFE SUCKS. SERIOUSLY

2008-05-02T20:13:00.002+08:00

I Love my life

Who am I kidding? I dont.

Goshhhhh

2008-04-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

So hear i am sitting so lonely at home, starring at my offending hand which is trying to kill me. (Oh gosh) So there is no more time for me to understand this cruel world who keeps tormenting me so... Therefore, I decided to just live with it and look at as positive as i can possibly can.

Alright, so update on my exams first. Well all the papers so far were really tough. Especially physics and Chemistry practical. Oh gosh, double titration's.. It almost caused me to faint (Weak willed?). Well that's beside the point. At least Social Studies was not that bad, rather easy actually. Although the SBQ required some time to understand fully, quite odd indeed.

So, the reason i haven not blogged in so long... Is because of exam, sigh. I feel really bad blogging now.. But hey tomorrow is labor day so (: I think one post wont hurt. I just really need to blog... One, because its a part of me. Two, "someone" keeps pestering me to update... Geez. Relax (:

Alright; events that have happened BEFORE exams, the oh so patronizing exams...

Well first of.. I am really missing my best friend Joselyn Hoi.. ): Been in London for soo long.. Haiz. Well i guess i'll get to see her soon so i should not be so sad. Loves.

Ok also, like went out with K mah to like Marine parade for fun haha! But my mum burst my bubble because she told me to be back hoe by 6 30 when it was already 5 + Omg.. So in the end i could not go to his house.. BOOO Ah well. We ate at pasta mania quite interesting actually XD.

So last week i went to like brass basah with Tess and we were like stonning for soo long.. It was kinda funny but very annoying. My exams woman! And you make me stone there tsk tsk...

Ok so now the bizzare part of everything that has happened to me. Right now i am kind of confused because i no longer understand the fine line between genius and nerd. Alot of people have been saying i am SOOO smart because i take triple science and Double maths so I am like... eer so ? But i dont know anymore. They all look at me like i am going to get really awesome results... But by the looks of it, I highly doubt so. Seeing as how i can possibly fail English and Malay, the two easiest subjects in the world.. I think i would die of embarrassment when everyone looks at my offending paper.

Ok and also, I have been having like weird thoughts lately... About someone who is my friend. I don't know if its a fantasized crush or just an annoyance that has emerged as a result of jealousy or something. Maybe i just need soo much attention... Thats what i always do anyway... Become emo and bother people because they try to comfort me but I am always so stubborn... Attention seeker ?

Haiz.. Now i just need to wonder to myself 1 thing... Do i like her or what? Sometimes i don't even know if i know this person but i feel like it's her... Although when your in deep thought (dreaming) you sometimes don't know who it is your dreaming about... but you know it's a friend. Oh well i guess i'll only know when i sum up the courage to ask. She probably doesn't feel the same but it can't hurt to try (:

Ok lastly... American Idol is so MEAN. They kicked out my favourite last week... Those bastards... Carly! We'll miss you so. Jason OMGWTFBBQ bb.

Oh and now the conspiracy again... i tried to talk to him again today.. Well not much to say even though i was trying really hard to start something. Ah well, no point talking to a rock. I realize that now.

Anyway, I won't be posting till after exams again... Next week XD. Ohhh i can't wait for my sleep over at Sam's house. WOOT ! Fun laughter and joy, i crave for you.

(P.S My bowling is getting noober by the day and my studies are dying)

2008-04-17T21:47:00.003+08:00

Doomsday is arriving soon. Mid years.... Therefore !! I Have made the decision not to post for a while... So all my avid readers... If i have any... Please look forward to posts in May (: . Or if i have some time i'll post again soon haha (: . Must go back to studying now omgosh...

Oh yeah and special thanks goes out to JERMAINE NG who is totally helping me with my otherwise quite sucky Chemistry haha !

Also thanks to Marissa And Max for their support for me learning music and teaching me a bit (:.

Something to live for !

2008-04-11T10:56:00.004+08:00

Ok i have decided to stop posting for a short period of time due to mid-year's approaching. Gosh! But i shall leave this blog with one last nice post of un-emotic proportions so that everyone can remember me well (: . This is going to be long.. Oh well (:

First of, Tuesday.
Well Tuesday was quite uneventful nothing much happened.. It was the day my mum asked me to go and pick up a musical instrument... And i was like," It's my 'O' Level yeah you know !!". But she just replied," You need a way to relax. Your stressed too much!". So i was quite perplexed by her sudden decision.. So i had to make a choice of what instrument to play. First It was violin! Yay! Then i realized that a violin costs a lot.. sob sob ): Since i had an electone i thought of playing the piano then at least i would not need to spend so much money right now.. All in all it was quite bizarre. So now i still have yet to decide.. And it's already Friday ):.

Wednesday..
This was another one of my emo days because the doctor gave me a call and told me like there was now a 50 : 50 chance on me getting my left arm paralyzed. Oh well. I hope my sister will never read this because she is not suppose to know but she usually never reads blog's so (: . Well, with that said.. Today was American Idol and i really loved today's performances of inspiring songs! Just when i was feeling down it cheered me up with the phenomenal performances by all the contestants. Mainly, David Archuletta, Jason Castro, Carly Smithson and Syesha Macardo. Oh gosh i really enjoyed these performances the best. Although i did not really agree with some of the critics given by the judges.

So i would just like to share one performance that made me really happy after watching it because it just sent me a message from the heavens above, "To Believe". I now do believe.

Love this.

Oh also, Today i went out with Kenneth Mah. One of my really good friends! Who has always been there for me when i was sad and abit too emo. I really need to thank him. Oh we went to eat Paper Lunch or something.. Haha then his tuition friend was there too. I was just being a third wheel ): . Oh and what was funny was that i could not guess her name after endless clues! But i finally got it, Jasmine. Haha. Anyway it was a fun day overall (:.

Thursday,
Well today was one of the most fun days of the week.. Although my Mother kind of spoilt it. I got to go out with my beloved bestie right after i got home.. Yay ! So happy (: . Now it gives me a bit more strength to carry on with my life no matter what hits me. So i just have to carry on without holding back. Thank god.

Today, Friday.
I am just sitting here blogging because my mum forgot that i had school... (Don't know how that happened..) So she did not wake me up AT ALL. She realised it at 9 when she was about to go to work.. What's worst is that i forgot to set my alarm the day before because i was too tired to think haha. Usually my Dad makes sure i am awake but he is in India right now on Business. So well i am at home right now just blogging haha (: Because some people actually do read my blog! Yay. Oh and i am getting my instrument today! But i dunno what to get yet ): Darn me !

Ok so overall, This week and the past week has been really hard for me, but looking at it all, there must be someone out there worst of then me so i should be really thankful that i am so blessed. So i will try my best not too be too sad.. Most people say i am too sensitive but i guess it's just the way i am and i can't really change it. I have to care about everything and everyone (: . But no i really have to say my deepest thanks and apologies ( For the trouble caused) to some people. Namely, Anthony Wee ( Always there!) Elaina, Candice and Kenneth and my bestiess... Jos! Haha (: . Thanks for all your help trying to cheer me up. Also thanks to Jermaine and Elaine who also tried to cheer me up via blog and msn haha (: . So thanks world ! For giving me such great friends but i hope i won't have to lose any anymore ..

My heart would fall if i had to go through what i had to persevere through on Thursday. I found out something about someone who was supposed to be one of my most trusted friends.
But if he was..

Then why did he not tell me.. ?
Why did he keep it a secret.. ?
Why does he avoid me... ?
And what's worst is the she is doing the same thing to me... Not a clue.

Is it right for you to hate someone just because he knows about it?
Is it right for you to betray your friend whom trusted you with all his heart?
Is it me that is wrong or is it he that has done wrong onto me.
How can i respond?
How can i know what to say.. ?
How can he hath treated me this way?

How i wonder why is it he is trying to keep it all to himself?
Why is he trying to find a reason for hate?
Why does he not see that i can be a friend?
Is it he who has the problem or me?
For if someone has done wrong onto you, you can despise..
But if he has done nothing then why is it that he is trying to tell people its a lie?

I really don't know anymore. Maybe it was a test of time and of all things that i can say, It just means he was never my friend and now she is beginning to detest me as well. Gosh the world works in mysterious ways.. But i guess i just have to take the punches and live with them. It will never be this easy and so if i breakdown now.. Who knows what will happen in the future.

Simply backstabbed although he may not know it. It hurt me a lot. Time to move on. I can't hate him for he has done nothing wrong to me.. But why is he allowed to hate me when i have done nothing to him? Is it her influence or is it just his way of trying to keep it from me? He has lost my trust because he has demolished his trust in me a long time ago i assume. If he is reading this, I am quite sure you know who you are and it is YOU that i am talking about. You backstabber, but i forgive you.

Just because i can forgive, does not mean i will forget and it is he who has lost a friend because he is giving up on my trust in him for someone. Friendship does not last forever in his books. Maybe for him it's just an act or attempt to be seen at as popular although it will never happen. Whatever the reason. THE TRUST IS GONE AND NOW IT IS HE WHO IS THE CRIMINAL.

In my last words, I forgive you, he who shall not be named. I am sorry if i did something wrong to you so please forgive me but that does not mean that we need to be friends anymore. I just don't want to be hated. And tell her that i hope she can forgive me to if i have done anything upon her to be hated so much. Maybe it's your influence. I hope you can erase that. I don't want to be hated but i don't need to have your love or be liked. Just no hate.

In the end i just have to say,
I feel like beating you up inside but now that i have forgiven you all is gone.
How could you not trust me.
Now i just ask.

Would your world have been the same if i just left you alone? You should ask yourself this if you are reading. You know who you are. Here's a hint, you don't openly talk about stuff. You are almost silent. Go figure out who YOU are.

Also i just have to ask everyone. Would your world be better without me?

2008-04-07T19:00:00.002+08:00

I am currently making a promise to the people around me.
I promised not to be emo anymore but i am tyring my best but life keeps bringing me down into misery. If you are reading this i thank you but i am sorry if it makes you depressed. I truly am. I just need to say it...
Well got into an accident the other day and now i am like almost cannot bowl.. Oh well. Just try little by little. The doctor said i haf to keep exercising my leg but i can't overexercise ? Or it may rupture again. Oh well lost of leg then.. Well whats more depressing is that i just talked to my mum today who just talked to my doctor, and turns out there was a risk muscle pull/slight fracture of my bone near my arm area.. So now there is the small chance that i will completely lose capabilities in my left arm. At least not my bowling arm right ? Ah well life just sucks. Also i just got insanely backstabbed by my so called best friend so now i am really too depressed to continue anymore so i'll stop for today. I'll talk about CIP another time. I guess -_-

2008-04-05T22:05:00.001+08:00

Ok so like haven't posted in a long long time. I do apologise to my readers if i have any.. So yeah i really am sorry.

I am just totally depressed and right now i don't have the capacity to even blog.. I am really really sad right now. But don't worry not near suicide..

I will try to post again some time soon after i get over my melancholic situation.

O.o

2008-03-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

Oh my god, have not blogged in a few days haha ! But never mind. Today was like the finals of the Bowling competition and i was like so sad... Not because bowling is basically over for me for now haha.. But because like i went up to take the top game prize which is 280!! But i was like super sad because it reminded me of like all the bad things... Lucky got Kenneth Mah there to like comfort me.. If not i really would have cried.. So THANKS K MAH ! haha

Also like i really wanna thanks so many people for like helping me recover from my past incidence of "failure". First i wanna thank Anthony.. I think most probably without him i would not have even shown up on Wednesday and Thursday.. So thanks.. Super thanks haha ! You really cheered me up (: . Also like i wanna thank Elaina who like totally listened to my problems and tried to cheer me up even though she had her own problems.. Omg really thanks ! haha.. And then there's Candice & Marc who like also totally listened to my problems... Especially Marc who like chatted with me for sooo long trying to comfort me... Thanks ! And then there's Esther who like gave me OREO yay (: I love oreo !! Haha thanks alot Esther.. Especially for the note on it haha.. It helped me today ! And then Like mentioned before K MAH !! Who is now like totally one of my best friends because he has really been consoling me alot and i really wanna thanks him. Just like Anthony haha ! Who is totally one of my best friends now also omg i really owe those 2 !! Haha.

Anyway yeah.. So i am not allowed to Emo anymore ! Oh and yay i bonded a bit with Jermaine when we bowled next to each other haha ! And then uncle adam was making us do weird things.. Like putting X sign towards each other haha.. And i am making her fat !! Giving her chocolate haha... She seemed really sad but she has a strong will i really admire that !

So the end. AND MARC BLOCK ME FROM HIS TAG BOARD... SOB SOB ): ): ):

2008-03-24T17:55:00.001+08:00

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

Fuck me i am a useless retard. Fuck me i don't deserve to live. Fuck me and fuck everything I do. It only turns out bad so fuck it there is no point to this anymore. My life is a fucking hell.

2008-03-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

Colbie Caillat Bubbly Lyrics

Omg sry haha i just wanted to post this lyrics cose i lurbe them they gimem strength! ( apologise the bad english)

Regardless

2008-03-21T10:14:00.002+08:00

Haha so far everything from my life since Tuesday has been ok :) And i really seem to be cheering up.. Like when i bowled my 202 avg ! Yay haha that made me so aesthetic haha :). Ok so like nothing much to say about the past few days so lets see.. Oh yeah American Idol was like a bit bad this week i did'nt really like most of the performances but i LOVED david omg omg :) He is soo cute.

Omg my favourite Brooke unfortunately had a bad week but it was like she said "inevitable" because last week she already sung a totally pwnage song that was very melodious and yeah so this week if she did the same things it will be like totally boring right? So i think she still did well :). Omg but the shocking part was like Carly in bottom 3 !!?? Wtf is that about omg. And they are trying to give us new suspense which is kind of annoying. ( Excuse my so called "good" English for today because i just woke up haha)

Ok so like yesterday COE was very fun haha :) My sister came along because she has nothing better to do with her life LOL! No la, she was just freakishly bored or something but it was kinda weird haha :). But then like my sister came up to me and like asked me what water to buy and all and like i told her then OMG... Clara, Candice , Dianne , Rosevelt were like scolding me omg ! I was so called bullying her haha quite funny that day.. I enjoyed COE :) B div coming so Uncle Adam was so nice and let me bowl games and practice spares :). Although i only liked my last few shots because i was like super unwell :( But i still got it together in the end... Almost lost my forward role again... Then got it back :). So like yeah that was kinda happy but it was a bit disappointing that i didnt bowl as well as i wanted to in the practice games. Not bad though. Omg and i just realised... Clara's backswing is like SOOO much higher then mine! I think its higher then marc's ! Lol omgosh i am so weird right.

So its like after all that i went out with family :) Because my bro came back from army for the first time zz... Like first day out so that was kinda cool. Then later kinda just msned all the way till 1 am haha.. Talking to anth, jos , elaina , ken and a few other people haha.

Oh and oops had a sleepover at Jos house.. And omg no she is not my gf or anything i just went because her parents invited me haha ! And no i didn't sleep in her room, (CHANCE GONE) but in her brothers room :) (JK). Omg her brother is so cool haha we played wii till like uber late almost till i didnt want to go sch the next day... Her bro is like in fairfield so their parents sent me to sch haha :). Well actually they sent me home first haha then i went to sch wid sum1 else because i didnt want to be too much of a bother to them. :) Ok so like yeah thats it :)

X0xo, Me <3>

Apologise or sympathize

2008-03-19T14:14:00.002+08:00

A chance

This is my chance to shine,
This is my chance to make it mine.
Whether i take it or walk away,
Its up to me to say.

A chance for me to consolidate,
A chance for me to annihilate.
A chance for me to start a new,
A chance for me to be like the morning dew.

A chance for me to save myself,
A chance for me to get picked from the shelf.
A chance for me to do my best,
A chance for me to beat the rest.

A chance for me to see the world,
A chance for me to eclipse this swirl.
A chance for me to fly away,
A chance for me to soar in the day.

A chance for me to be resolute,
A chance for me to be absolute.
A chance for me to renew my life,
A chance for me to continue this strife.

In all this time i have not been,
what i was to be seen.
In all this time i now have a chance,
To be dragged into a heroes stance.

I feel so relieved now that some people do believe in me. I feel really happy and joyous that some people can see the silver lining in me. I really am relieved and i really do believe that i am now given a chance to start a new in this world. It was just proven to me when i bowled today, that people do believe in me and i do believe in myself and with just that, i can bowl at my best.

I really do hope that someday soon she will accept me but at least now i know people really care about me. I am so happy and i am so blessed.

Btw i bowl 202 avg today :) Yay me ! I still wish the best for all my other fellow 'b' division bowlers and Jia You! If i can do it so can u haha :) Not that i am saying anyone sucks or anything.. Omg i did it again :(. Never mind just do your best everyone haha ! :)

Is it life or is it misery?

2008-03-18T16:06:00.004+08:00

Alright I have made the impromptu decision to start typing good English because it seems to be affecting my skill(s) at writing reports. I have therefore decided to turn over a new leaf(<-- note the good use of synonyms, if thats what it's called) and just get on with this.

Now i am sitting very lonely in a room with no window's or door's. Is it because i have shut myself away of the world? Or is it because i have been shunned by those around me? I woke up today in my room asking myself these questions of which i have no answer. The perplexities of life is what gives us challenges but why do i feel so dismayed when one is portrayed in front of me? Is it because i lack the capacity to follow through with my desires? Or is it because i have nobody there to be with me.

Now i wonder again to myself. Am i truly happy... to be alone? I realize now that i don't have that many close friends and day by day i seem to be losing them as if it was a race to see who could stay my friend the longest(I just made this up) and stay the truest. Also realizing i actually don't have that many friends. I am just alone in this vast world which intimidates me every time i try to take a step outside my comfort. Is it truly worth it to try? Even when you don't succeed and just fall to the ground?

I always wonder about these thing; true or false. Just like a simple kiss, i have been unable to preserve my lust. I always crave for something more when i already have what i need. Am i being selfish? Or am i being myself? Nobody truly knows who I am inside( look at the tags so few...), beneath my shallow aesthetic outlook.

It is like being washed away to a distant land, where nobody can see me and where i can see no one. I am alone on this trip because i have left what i had for something new. Only to realize that i wished to be back home. Is it truly well of me to see the world as such? Unforgiving; am I not the one who so blatantly chose this destiny where there is no goal? How i wish upon a star (Irony) for something to give me hope or for someone to give me a new beginning; where i can start anew.

Just because i am always so happy and trying my best to help people out, does not mean that i am unfeeling. I have feelings but they are never important enough. Is this why i have chosen this road? To nowhere. How it is a joy to have friends who truly care for you, of which i am blessed with but have taken for granted. And now at this phase of my life, i try my best to thrive on but i am losing hope in all. I have been so foolish all this time, looking towards a future that was not only never there but also, it disguised me from the world as one of them. How i wonder if i can be redeemed, to be forgiven, and to be taken back into the lives of others as what was originally in visioned.

How i long for the impossible,
How i fear for the rain,
How i cry every night,
How i feel, full of fright.

How i see nothing but an empty space,
How i look like a disgrace,
How i discern all sensibility,
How i falter from the probability.

How i am is who i am,
How i think when in a jam,
How i propose to speak,
How i judge the weak.

How i have fallen into this land,
How i made us disband,
How i moan when alone,
How i react when on the phone.

How i survive in this place,
How i am in such a space,
How i believed in my destiny,
How i back stabbed others, melancholy.

How i spread my arms out,
How i ignored you oh so stout,
How i arrogantly walked away,
How i forgot u, made u dismay.

How i leaned on your shoulder,
How i bothered you like a boulder,
How i am such a weight,
How i deserve to be fish bait.

How i do not deserve to live,
How i manage to harm your sieve,
How i burned you from my life,
How i wish i hadn't been in such a strife.

How i die on that day,
How i will see your face, no way,
How i leave this world untouched,
How i would have done nothing such dutch.

In the end everything and everyone will just leave me; I have nothing to offer them and all i have done is caused them distress. How i am such a foolish creature to have thought myself one of them, how unworthy of me to be a friend. I know that one day all will be lost because of this journey i have taken, my destiny is sealed. One day soon i will just end up hurting everyone around me, nobody can love me. For who could love such a creature, Beauty and the Beast is just another fairy tale.

In no world is happiness that easy to find, especially more difficult to those around me. I was born to love but not to be loved. I never show my love or care this is the cause of my despair, I was such a coward all this time, everyone would have just run away. How i long to be finally loved, how i wish this dream was a reality.

It does not matter where i walk anymore, because i know i have no new beginning in the end. No matter where i turn to it will only come back to haunt me, how i have mistreated everyone, how i lack the capacity to befriend. The beginning is in fact only possible if there is an end. I am the end.

2008-03-17T20:05:00.003+08:00

Today is dedicated to my wonderful fwen CANDICE CHOO ~..
Omg totally pwnage haha... SO ure 16 now ! Same age as me omg.. how time flies.. not cannot bully you sian sian sian. Ah well life goes on right ? Well happy bday girl and like totally i know ure secret HEHEHE.. I shall spread it out because ure 16 birthday is suppose to be special right ? Ok so,

Well anyway besides that secret i would just like to say special thanks to Candice who like totally helped me cheer up and like yeah all the time helping me get through my problems with my teams and so on haha. Although only on msn and msging alot haha but oh well its ok i still appreciate it SOOOO much ~ And like Elaina too for helping cheer me up on sat when i bowled like a fucker too haha... But yeah this is suppose to be about candice so heck haha !

Anywayz, long time has passed since i have known u... from since u were like totally just copying Elaina and whenever u see me always call me gay haha to now when u are like so thoughtful and kind~ Also like totally in love with some people makes u seem so cute haha !. Denial = Stage 1 of love haha... And its like yeah totally awesome now that i get to talk to you more often and yeah we are kinda in the same boat only you haf slightly less pain wid the "two". But yeah still a bit pained and i wish u the BESTTT of luck for like whenever ure bowling which is first day tmr :) And like yeah to ure team mates as well... i know stacy is one of them but not sure abt the rest haha ~

Ok poem time,

Just when you helped me from going astray,
You were so wonderful, today.
Your birth marked a remark,
And now your leaving it behind with a bark.

I mean it in a good way,
I just dont know what to say.
Your truly a good friend,
I wish we will never disband.

Ok so thats done haha...

NOW SHOUT OUT ~... To all those bowling 'b'division especially my gal friends ! Its like i wish u the tods best of luck in like all ure games and all your days and i will be with u there in spirit haha ! So i wish u all the best of luck and perseverance!

Dedication to candice!

I HATE MATHS

2008-03-16T13:11:00.003+08:00

I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS

So much maths its driving me insane so many papers ! Maths maths maths

I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS

Maths is all i think about,
Maths is all i see,
My brains about to become stout,
Thinking about maths B.

Maths sucks maths is lame,
Almost like ure mothers frame,
Maths sucks maths is gay,
It just ruins my entire day.

I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS
I HATE MATHS

JUNGLE MAN CONFLICT~

2008-03-14T21:58:00.002+08:00

Ok so Elaina is busy posting about Jungle Man AKA Marc wee and its like getting totally weird.. so i just wanted to post this for commentator reasons.

1) Whats with the blue post.
2) I just find it all totally weird
3) I like my feminine intuition title.
4) Relax marc elaina likes to give people nicknames.
5) Why am i posting this nvm.

A poem for them,

Brothers and sisters hand in hand,
Relax and come together dont disband.
Enjoy each other every day,
Because one time u wont know what to say.

2008-03-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

Yes today was soo weird... Training at OCC then we haf like our own "internal" masters. Apparently Anthony gave me chance and let me qualify for the final 2 with willie. Unfortunately i lose sob* sob* but it was a good fight haha had like 2 7 10 splits so what to do ? Oh well. And what else let me see... Oh yeah then went to anthonys house which was quite fun haha his house very nice :)

So there we were like discussing weird stuff and he was like trying to show off his pwnage CS skills by fighting against bots.. O.O and his pro ownage audition skills with 1 hand @.@. Ok so yeah. Then we watched Juno which is so uberly cool sort of. Sex show ROX. Oh well. I wanted to watch a horror movie after but my mum forced me home :( .. so i had to leave his house sadly.. couldnt stay over another sad thing. Oh well when life gives u lemons kill the person who gave u the lemon.

And then lets see ~ hrm . Oh yeah went to uncle sam to go do my balls becos tmr masters.. and i think i ticked lok chor off because he was like being concerned of my transport and i just said like i will find my way lax thanks. Then he was like so serious like i am VERY RELAXED~ DONT EVER ASK ME TO RELAX~.. that sounds tense and unrelaxed to me but oh well different people haf different ways of relaxing~.

Anywayz then it was like so weird i wanted to go Elaina's house badly~ but it was like so totally sad. She like said i couldnt come the day before then today she said yeah u can come study with me OMG!. Then she msned that no mood haha ! and she was sleeping. So i should have gone haha !. But no diff. I am a happy person now :).

Poem time,

Lost in the abyss of time,
You found me out of crime,
I feel so happy and gay,
U are the sun in my day.

Just when i thought u left me,
You came back with tea.
U know what i love and where it is,
I hope to be with You forever.

Weird COE and my career ??

2008-03-13T20:27:00.003+08:00

Today was so weird ~ Omgosh at CoE training this bizzare boy came to our lanes and just put in a name and started bowling and we were like O.O. Jungle Man was there, but it was Darly who saved the day ! And then i got pissed because i could not release the ball properly... so saddening :( :( sob sob. Then Marc ( Jungle Man) was being so mean by being talented and putting such nice shots that i got pissed with him.

So we decided to play WAHJONG 2nite eventhough i am not good and basically dont understand most things about it hehe :). But oh well thats the fun in it :). I am so Harpy ~ Oh and also we were like laughing the entire CoE because Rosevelt and I had a discussion that shit is not rubbish and rubbish is not shit because u dont shit rubbish and u dont throw shit into a rubbish bin... CHILDISH MUCH~.

It was like tods funny. And now as partially promised the first verse of my song career~..

Oh just follow me to wherever i may go,
If i fall please be there to catch me.
It makes it feel like daily sorrows .....have become..... alright,
When i look in ure eyes.
My heart fliess........ soooo high!

And the people of this shadow,
Brought to life,
They just dont know,
Oh they just dont know.......Ohhh,
That we........ Belong..... Together...Forever more.... ohh yeah...

FIrst 2 verses please comment haha when i can try to get some1 to sing it in the right keys ill post it haha :) i cant sing :(

X0xo :) me.

2008-03-12T23:17:00.006+08:00

Omg today american idol was soo good... i was seriously damn cheered up by their performances.
Omg so amazing ... rly can cry one... how wussy-like of me but sob sob SOO GOOD.

My new <3 style="color: rgb(51, 255, 255);">Brooke White.
Omg when she sang i was like soo.. omg.. its so melodic she doesnt even need to power her voice and it sounds so sweet... Lips of an angel.. truly, Omg and when she plays the piano.. her expression omg i am soo truly amazed by her... Lovely. *crying now*.
2 weeks ago since i started loving her...

Most recent one...

Omg please listen to this i love it with my heart and soul.. omg so touching and heartwarming.. *still crying*

Sry for my unnecessary tears but i am just so omg she is rly ownage... without even the power omg.. :)

Oh and the next 2 <3's style="color: rgb(204, 255, 255);">CARLY SMITHSON ~~ my first ,3 but unfortunately overthrown....

Omg when she sang this i thought she totally overthrew Amanda in her "rock" outlook eventhough carly wasnt going for the whole rocker attitude but omg its so OWNAGE~
YES and lastly ~ DAVID ARCHULETA
Complete and uber pwnage amongst the guys OMG ~ i will always
(Omg the vid got problem SOBS)
I will never agree with EVIL comments of judges when its david ~

Ok so yeah totally .... overall it was a great great great night and i loved almost everyone... except well kristy a bit O.O. But oh well omg overall Brooke totally pwned the entire competition~ I rly rly <3 hehe =").">
Oh and yes my signature... ending...

I was lost in this once world,
You showed me the elliptical swirls,
Life now has new meaning,
I feel like a renewed being.

So many days pasted and i was left a blur,
U spoke to me with such softness in ure slur,
I really love you dont you know?
How i wish u were my bow.

Along this shore i must admit,
I never thought i would submit,
composure, indulgence, Ingenuity, Amazing.
My heart is ever blazing.

Well dere u go :) from now on i am gonna start writing songs so i'll post them and give me ure comments haha thanks :). Hopefully they would be nice.

Sorry for the ending BIG BIG letters ... something wrong wid it cant edit :(

2008-03-11T15:22:00.002+08:00

Training training thats all my life is about...

Nobody here to fill the empty space,
Once a loner always a last,
Many a day has past now gone forever,
Why am i writing this i will never know.

So how it may seem u arei n shallow water,
Cry for me and be my one and only,
See me and fly me away,
Rock its life.. come to say.

Jaggered in my heart,
A deep stone pierces,
Nobody left. Nobody home,
I am all alone.

Aiyoh so hard to post pics.. getting annoying O.O... oops.

2008-03-09T09:25:00.003+08:00

BOOOO just got back... and now i am emoed.... again another poem.

How strange i feel,
It seems so unreal,
I was never thought the sights of zeal,
But i feel like running away from this bill.

Oh well w/e... this is so emoed i might not go masters SO EMOING !! Novice competition also i cant qualify :(...
So many things confusing.. i feel like being emoed..

JOKES ~ (How random??)

Ok there were 3 guys... one chinese one malay and one indian. So they were put to the test by asking to stand in the room with the worlds smelliest pig.

Chinese DUde : I will go in ! I can do it !
A few seconsd later.... : OMG I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE
Malay DUDE : I will try my best !
A few more seconds later .... : OMG DAMN ITS SMELLY
Indian DUDE : I will do it !
A few seconds later.... The pig ran out O.O?

Ok now some IQ tests...

1) If a rooster lays an egg on a very steep roof where will the egg roll ?
2) If an electric train goes <--- way and the wind goes<--- way where will the smoke go ?
3) If sea level is at 2 steps and a ship will always be at 1 step... where will the ship be if the sea level was 6 steps?
4) A guy wants to go to a truth village... but next to it is the liars village... so he came across the crossroads with a dude standing there not knowing if he is a liar or a truth teller... so what is the one question he can ask the guy that will lead him to the truth teller's village? (WARNING! going to the liars vilalge means end.. and u can ask only 1 question).

If u can answer 3/4 u are smart... if 0 u SUCK!... heheh...

The end.

2008-03-07T10:20:00.002+08:00

Omgosh havent posted in a while but nvm i am back :).
People keep harrasing me at school but i say nothing about it i feel so wussy-like.
Sian.. i just dont want to show my true feelings because i might kill them.

ANYWAY, Omg american idol last night was sooo good... and the guys nite was also sooo gooodd.. Omg my favourites did so well hahah :)... Oh but the ownage 1's..

FOR THE GUYZ, DAVID..

FOR THE GIRLS, ASIA'H

Omgosh i love them so much... love them :)...

Oh yeah special thanks goes out to harris who has sort of been comforting me when i was about to kill myself//cut myself. Thanks ! Now i am positive again !! woots.

2008-03-03T20:11:00.002+08:00

Unfeeling... Unknown...Uncaring.Unsure

There are many reasons why people feel sad.. but for me is by far the worst... I feel so sad when something doesnt go my way... is that wrong for me to say? I constantly induldge in self pity....Am i going astray? So many things i wish to say.... Would you love me when i am away?

Emoralizing. The momentum is slowing down. Life is but a simple bed of roses... You always get pricked by the thorns. If you thought life was tough... you never really went through it.

I been doing so bad... all this time i just wonder to myself. I am such a loser..Nobody really wants to be my friend... Everything around me is just in the abyss of distructive distractions. Aesthetic? I think not. I draw to relieve myself.. but what is the point when there isnt anyone to share it with. what is the reason for my life?

Is it wrong for me to question god's judgement. I think not. You should try it yourself too. Life is never what it seems. One day you have it..the next day you lose it. Deal with it.

w/e. emoralizing. me

2008-02-29T23:07:00.002+08:00

Teams finally announced... I wont say i am disappointed but i am a bit depressed... For many reasons than 1... Supposedly a leader... but i fall back to the last place everytime i take 1 step forward..

Does this mean i should just give up... because no matter how hard u try... sometimes u just cant catch up with the things the pass u by so effortlessly.. It makes u seem and see the whole world as a place where we were made to just die sooner or later... W/e life doesnt seem fair most of the time but everytime i try to pick myself up when i fall i just drop down the wall...

I am "All by myself".

Team 1 : Willie, Loke Chor, Sai Mun, Kenneth Mah

Team 2 : Jerome, Jarvis , Justin , Anthony Wee

Team 3: Woon Siong, Gregory Tan, Max Chua... and u know who.

Seemingly i dont know what to say.. i just wanna shout it out but i am such a whimp anyway.

xoxo, Emo dude's dont feel pain... or do we ?

2008-02-26T18:02:00.003+08:00

My life is a terrible misery..
Nothing in this world can stop me,
I am going to leave without u noticing,
When i walk out this door there is no turning back.

How i wonder if you care,
Maybe you do but oh well..
Everyone hates me ..
Life is but a terrible misery..

We were put on this earth to die,
But i want to live..
Although there is nothing i can offer..
Or be offered.

Life is a terrible misery,
Why were we born..
I am falling down this hill,
You cant stop me. No one can.

It is MY life,
but why does your presence affect me so,
you can just go away,
you are obsolete now.

I am falling...

xoxo, backstabber... hating

Watch out all those out there... someone... i know this,

2008-02-23T14:16:00.000+08:00

Yay today fun day :D .. but i bowled a bit weird the morning.. Thumb all stuck since my driller not in town..

Anyway i been looking forward 2 2dae because i can go out wid sammie and sam :D so happy... wanted to watch L but prolly no space.. Going out soon so i just thought id post something here :D Wow my positive attitude is really benefiting my life alot.. nvr felt better :D Except when i am with frens of cos haha. PeAcE oUt.. And i must thank elaina for being such a fan of american idol and help me "rmbr" the names haha..

2008-02-22T23:10:00.002+08:00

OMG my com broke down and i havent posted for sooo uber long i feel so dead bloggered.

Anyway AMERICAN IDOL GOSSIP ~

I Love for the guyz... Danny!!! and DaVid!!! Double D's ( possibly... ***)
Anyway i prefer the girls more :D I like asia'h omg she is the first name i actually rmbred omg in a long long time. i love the sound of her voice so sensual... I also like sYESha omg another person i actually rmbred... and i loved lastly CARLY SMITHSON I actually rmbred her last name meaning i love her the most OMG!! Owns !! I love AI...

OH gosh i haf no life... anyway its joyous to know there are people like elaina who enjoy it too haha :D

2008-02-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

Omg today was so fun :D ... In the morning training den den i went out wid K mah gregs woonie and adam at first :D We went to watch CJ7 omg its so funny but they all like... :( so i felt bad haha but nevermind they still were like okay wid me haha.

Then later we met bee yong and du yong :DD so fun then we went to watch another movie hahaha ... sadly greg n woonie nt there... :( but nvm :D. Kung Fu DUNK is tooooo unbelievable sia ! Jay chou can fly 10m nice... But the movie is nice when u r wid good ompany anyway :D... i rly wanan thank them hahaha

2008-02-15T19:54:00.002+08:00

Sighz.... My whole body is in alot of pain as a result of ... well... over-training.
My left leg is doomed !! I just hope tomorrow i can bowl because i haf to go training :(.

Anyway POSITIVE still!!... although some people are trying to break me down.. IT WILL NEVER WORK!...
This is a blessing in disguise. God is trying to make me tougher thats all... When anyone else gets like leg pain hehehe i can LAUGH!... ( Saddist is still a happy person therefore positive).

2008-02-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

Hey hey :D
After my birthday i haf decided to go on a POSITIVE attitude on everything. Nothing can break me down !!

Today school was so fun. Although art was abit trying but it is a blessing still :D.
I had such a nice chat with Harris about alot of stuff and i seem to know him better. YATA!
My duty is to know everyone of my friends alot better this year because i think i lack some things...
So i haf to make up for it all :D

POSITIVITY OWNS I CAN KEEP AT IT FOREVER!

argh

2008-02-08T22:56:00.001+08:00

Hey hey.... Sad day i feel so depressed and my foot is sore...

Stupid fren sammmiiee went to drag me arnd singapore....
We went to marine parade.... supposedly to buy stuff but found that ALL the shops were closed...
Then she draged me to Tampiness.... also all closed wtf..
Then bugis omg.... I went there eat sakae and now i am sick wid food poisoning..
screwed !

2008-02-06T10:42:00.000+08:00

Haiz... just woke up and remembered my outburst and my friends last night..
I feel so bad sia... But it was like pissing me off ..
Anyway today suppose to go marine parade (YATA) but then my friends cancelled to go to pool.
Damnit la my world is so screwed.. So many problems.
I can't wait to go jc and forget about all of them!

Somemore my Saturday is screwed.
My friends want to go out and have lunch then go my friends house omg? What an odd birthday...
Go to someone elses house... Haiz...
And i invited Willie and Greg and they are like o.o... They prolly think i am a loner and they are my only friends...
Fuck la how screwed up is this..

XoXo, me

2008-02-05T19:49:00.001+08:00

Wah sian just got back damn tired sia.... Today CNY concert damn boring.. zz

And now my damn tag box spoil zz... haiz could the day get any worse ?
Anyway cheers to everyone who is having a nice day except me... Sux.
Utterly emo-ed n depressed.

On the plus side i love the wallet my sister bought me !!

And my daddy got me a new watch :D!!

2008-02-05T06:15:00.000+08:00

OOps willie's right for once in his life...

Team 1 : Willie, Chor , +2 others (hopefully me!) (Currently me sai n k mah fighting)

Team 2: Justin Jerome Jarvis Anth Wee

Team 3 : Unknown haha

Anywayz... off to school no sianz.. and since kmah most prolly will partner chor that means me n sai fighting to get in to team 1. Argh pressue. But nvm must overcome mental O.O

Is the world ending?

2008-02-04T19:58:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh i might have to bowl with rubber for 'b' div! Damn... Someone Save me :(
I feel so sad now... Sigh who is going to be my doubles?
I wish this emptiness inside me would be filled.
But i have nobody to talk with.. console myself ..

OMG i am supposedly fighting for team 2 with K mah Sai Mun And GERALD?!
That means who is in..
I dont wanna partner rubber !! :(.
SAve me !.

Also Premonitions for team 1 : Justin Lim, Jarvis Lim , Jerome Li, Anthony Wee
Also Premonitions for team 2: Willie Quek, Loke chor + 2 others (oh no).

Oh gosh so many of my friends having problems.... Makes all of mine seem so irrelevant.
Sigh.. and also i found a friend in a very unlikely place haha.
Cheers to Anthony Wee my newest friend.
Well actually friend before but nvm !

2008-02-04T15:52:00.001+08:00

Oh man Adam and Anthony trying to fail my friend test... emo sia...
And trying to get 100% for my friend test... zz

2008-02-04T14:51:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happened today... i am just a little sick :( I missed school and training...
Also i emoing... gf-less... sighz.

2008-02-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

Apologist to dear Elaina. People please dont black list her she really helped me alot. What a sweetheart right? Anywayz Thanks alot Elaina ! I really owe u 1!! :D

2008-02-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

ANTHONY WEE KEEPS BOTHERING ME TO SPREAD MY SECRET
EVERYONE PLEASE BLACKLIST HIM !! HE WILL SPREAD MY SECRET
OMG CANDICE, JESSIE, SAPP AND SAM ARE BEING EVIL ALSO!!
TRYING TO SQUEEZE IT OUT OF ME !! SO MEAN

2008-02-03T18:15:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happened today.. ah well.. EXCEPT i just started my blog Hurray!
Depress for me and u will gain in life.
I love the fact that i can freely express my thoughts here..

I have a secret. Nobody will ever know..
I love someone but i will never reveal her name.
I wonder if she knows or if she just doesnt want to talk to me really..
She is so beautiful.
I wonder if she will ever notice what is right in front of her.

P.S : On a completely unrelated note here is a funny conversation from tuition today:

Irmi: Your maid commited suicide. Haha
Tuition teacher: Omgosh dont be so mean la.
(Tuition teacher goes to see maid.. i wonder why..)
Irmiliah: Omg she commited suicide because she forgot to stir my RIBENNA!
(Extreme laughter from all)
(last for 5 minutes..)

Another thing weird:
My happiness today is a revulsion.. XOXO. Me

2008-02-03T18:14:00.000+08:00

Omg Elaina hacked into my blogspot! She really has no life. Never Mind i shall ignore her past mental breakdown.

xoxo, Me

2008-02-03T11:31:00.000+08:00

like omgzxzxz.

adnaan made me change his really cute gay bunny template to like this eeeeeeeeeeemo one.

like ewwwwwwwwness

xoxo,

anonymous

2008-02-03T11:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO.
its anonymous here:D
adnaaan is totally clueless on htmls, templates and such
and he wants to put a really gay bunny on his blogspot.
so well, i guess i'll just let him be:D

but since he needs at least ONE post to get his blog towork,
here i am,

xoxo,
anonymous.